tonight i went out for dinner with my first Indonesian friend after such a long time dealing with my exam paper. finally today , i am FREE and the smell of FREEDOM is like SO GOOD~ really enjoy this feeling before start to confuse about my test and stressful stuff!!
its been so nice to spent my dinner time with some new indonesian friends who i met in RMIT. we went for buffet in CROWN as our dinner and the foods taste YUMMY. they also gave us FREE prawn as the complementary .All of us feel sick after eating all the prawns! LOL. after fill our stomach with lots of food from beef, chicken, mushroom soup and dessert (yea thats all the food that get in to my stomach in one night ) we went for drinking session in HYATT'S HOTEL. we chat and laugh a whole night and i just feel HAPPY. its been a while i didnt speak and chat in INDONESIA's language and it feels like i am back to INDONESIA and the feeling is like irreplaceable.
this " HAPPY " word seems to disappear from my life lately but that's before i made a very important decision in my life.
"ITS JUST REALLY HARD TO LET GO THINGS THAT SUPPOSE TO BE YOURS. "
Its been my dilemma for this few weeks but knowing that regret wont change anything hence i made a decision and HAPPINESS starts to take its own place AGAIN. making decision to let go things might be hard, but as you start to work it out, everything will be okay at least in the process of letting go, you will learn things in an unpredictable way. you gain more knowledge than before and build you to be a more mature individual. in the process, as well you will find more people come and go in your life and you will start appreciate people who are really mean to you and who dont. hence, in life, people come and go but memories will stay. hope every moment that we made today take an important part in our memories.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
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Thursday, June 9, 2011
FAMILY
now i just realize that when life hit you hard downwards, family is the one who will stand by your side by giving you courage and power to deal with the problem . either friends or lover will move one step backwards. and this seems to happen in people's life. not being pessimistic on relationship with outsider but people change when condition change. problem can give you experience and knowledge of who you can trust and hold on when you are suffering. family will encourage you with all your choice without complaining of your "drama queen" behavior and attitude. they keep on giving you strength and motivation until you can pass the difficult chapter of your life.
okay , there are some FRIENDS that you can depend on but the question is HOW LONG? people get bored easily and so do them. firstly, they with their enthusiastic asking what happen to you then awhile after that when you keep repeating the same story, they will get bored and start to leave you alone with those problem.
BUT ...
family, they are your source of courage when you feel sad even in you happy time you forget about FAMILY but at least when you realize you need someone , family member will take the first place to come and help you.
some people argue, i have a nice and loyal best friend that would like to hear the problem. but don't you forget that they have their own and they cant care enough for you. lets say they care when they are in front of you but when you disappear from their sight, they will be more focus on theirs. but family will think and care of you EVERY TIME even when you didn't really want to find them in your lowest point.
FAMILY become the most important parts in my life since i find out that friends , best friends and lovers have chance to betray you and let you experience sweet memories in the beginning but hurts in the end.
hence, every moment spent with your family really count and appreciate for those who still have it in your life because REGRET ALWAYS COME LATE.
okay , there are some FRIENDS that you can depend on but the question is HOW LONG? people get bored easily and so do them. firstly, they with their enthusiastic asking what happen to you then awhile after that when you keep repeating the same story, they will get bored and start to leave you alone with those problem.
BUT ...
family, they are your source of courage when you feel sad even in you happy time you forget about FAMILY but at least when you realize you need someone , family member will take the first place to come and help you.
some people argue, i have a nice and loyal best friend that would like to hear the problem. but don't you forget that they have their own and they cant care enough for you. lets say they care when they are in front of you but when you disappear from their sight, they will be more focus on theirs. but family will think and care of you EVERY TIME even when you didn't really want to find them in your lowest point.
FAMILY become the most important parts in my life since i find out that friends , best friends and lovers have chance to betray you and let you experience sweet memories in the beginning but hurts in the end.
hence, every moment spent with your family really count and appreciate for those who still have it in your life because REGRET ALWAYS COME LATE.
Monday, May 2, 2011
emo ing
i used to be happy right now but something happens and it ruins everything! it ruins my mood to study and that leads me to post some useful things in my blog.
do you know that when you start missing someone? it feels really bad and the hardest part is when he didn't even miss and think about you. i am sure that he didn't miss me since no phone call made by him since 1 week ago. i know i cant start to miss him since he had hurt me for more than twice.but my heart seems to give him a very special place as always. oh no! i am emo ing right now. can someone just take my heart away maybe i will be happy by then.
i know it seems weird when i want to be a no hearted person. but yes i want to be one of them now! person without heart so i wont be so hurt when someone hurt me so bad and i wont cry and being touched. it will be great that way,. i am too tired to live with all problem in my life. i cant solve even one of my problem since i need to take care of everyone feeling and make them happy. i cant stand it anymore. so heart, can you please be nice to me? let me do whatever i want for the really first time? :(
do you know that when you start missing someone? it feels really bad and the hardest part is when he didn't even miss and think about you. i am sure that he didn't miss me since no phone call made by him since 1 week ago. i know i cant start to miss him since he had hurt me for more than twice.but my heart seems to give him a very special place as always. oh no! i am emo ing right now. can someone just take my heart away maybe i will be happy by then.
i know it seems weird when i want to be a no hearted person. but yes i want to be one of them now! person without heart so i wont be so hurt when someone hurt me so bad and i wont cry and being touched. it will be great that way,. i am too tired to live with all problem in my life. i cant solve even one of my problem since i need to take care of everyone feeling and make them happy. i cant stand it anymore. so heart, can you please be nice to me? let me do whatever i want for the really first time? :(
Sunday, October 24, 2010
feelings
hi readers! i have just finished my ielts test and i am worried about the result that i will be achieving.i have sacrificed a lot of my free time to face this exam thus i hope that the result wont make me disappointed .. i need to wait 2 weeks for the result to be released hence between those days i wont be able to have sweet dreams! listening is the part where freaking me out the most, even though i have been well prepared for it, in the exam i gained lots of mistake! Yet, i need to have positive thinking towards in order to attained an outstanding achievement! so before the result being realeased i still have a hope to have an outstanding mark!
be positive and everything will turn out right * hope that it will be a reality! AMEN!
be positive and everything will turn out right * hope that it will be a reality! AMEN!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
try to love my life now =)
its been a time tht i dont even open and write something. while waiting for my mom to online, i think i would rather write something here, to share my new life at INTI before continuing my futher study at australia :) staying at inti may be bad, but i try to survive with this condition. however sometimes i couldnt stand it, i feel BOREDD! i need some activity to do beside study and play computer =( i really hope to have a happy life SOON! *i hope * one of my friend say this to me " you need to be happy even you are not in a happy mood, because it can cause you to be happy . hang out , play with ur fren, share everything when you are bored maybe the best way but you need to survive with this condition cause it can make you a better person someday " thanks for my friend who make me become more patient and happy to pass these days. i adore him so much cause he always encourage me on every of my step even i wasnt being nice to him everytime ! ( it cause by my fluctuating mood ) i hope our friendship can last forever. i hope the distance that separate us will make our friendship stronger. i really hope you will always be happy( like the one you always say to me ) everytime i am by ur side , i always feel happy.hope you feel the same way that i do. i really care about you. hope you always remember me :) hope we are BESTFRIEND forever..
Sunday, May 16, 2010
quotess :)
Life is filled with choices and it takes courage to make a decision, rather than just drift along.
Some people feel that they can make a decision they need to canvass all their friends and loved for their opinions to ensure that they make the right decision. They mistakenly believe that calling on the support of others in this way ca be a sign of strength and wisdom.
its quite a nice quote. i just copy and paste it from someone. in my opinion we need others opinion but we also need to try to improve our own self confidence to make a decision cause its ur life and you need to handle and make the best decision for your life.
others can give you suggestion but dont use it as a way of eliminating the fear of getting something wrong as a way of outsourcing your decision-making to others.
We don't know what the future holds. We only know it's starting now; looking forward brings hope. It can cleanse past problems and worries. Be optimistic. do what you want since there is a chance :)
i hope that you can be inspired by your own hope and dream. dont follow anyone cause this is your life not theirs :) happy decision making
feli ..
Some people feel that they can make a decision they need to canvass all their friends and loved for their opinions to ensure that they make the right decision. They mistakenly believe that calling on the support of others in this way ca be a sign of strength and wisdom.
its quite a nice quote. i just copy and paste it from someone. in my opinion we need others opinion but we also need to try to improve our own self confidence to make a decision cause its ur life and you need to handle and make the best decision for your life.
others can give you suggestion but dont use it as a way of eliminating the fear of getting something wrong as a way of outsourcing your decision-making to others.
We don't know what the future holds. We only know it's starting now; looking forward brings hope. It can cleanse past problems and worries. Be optimistic. do what you want since there is a chance :)
i hope that you can be inspired by your own hope and dream. dont follow anyone cause this is your life not theirs :) happy decision making
feli ..
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