T.R.U.S.T

Trust is the biggest issue yet not being concerned as the most important factor of a relationship. Never trust anyone completely. I clearly believe without foundation of trust, then there will be no future. Its true you need to have ability of trust, but sometimes circumstances not allow you to have faith on it. Then you know its time to let go things that make you anxious before. Once i tried to convinced myself that i should put my trust on you. I make efforts. LOTS. But i was fooled by you.

Trust is not always proven by words. Sometimes action tells more than you ever do.

"Sometimes you trust someone who turns out not to be honest. There are a lot of things that happen in life that don't turn out the way you're given the impression that they will. And I think that's all kind of a con. But i think we've probably all been hurt. -Sigourney Weaver"

Don't state anything about care, love , affection and all those non-sense. Cause i am no longer believe on you. If you do care, probably this won't happen. Reality allow me to have deep relation with you and its a good things. It helps me to grow. Learn this world. Not everyone is trustworthy.

How i wish not to believe in reality. Clearly know that i am not important enough for you to consider, yet too goofy about the whole things from the very beginning. But before my feelings get screwed ; then we can pursue our dream separately. 

This will be the most random post for the most random person ever.

Hey you.Just to let you know that most of my friends said that i am a girl who never show any attention to someone who is special to me. Mostly, i wont notify anyone and keep everything for myself. I know, its a bad behavior to keep.So this is my very first time telling you that i care. Its sincere. Its honest. So should i say that you are special to me?

No one ever know whats on my mind. Cause i have a thought about human being. They are not really care, all they do is just pretending. I hope we can be open no matter what reason we have, cause i would like you to help me develop and learn things i have never experience before.

And i will post songs that are on my playlist.Not what's on my mind, so don't let your mind do the guessing. Enjoy. =)

 Jason Chen- Invisible 

Jason Chen - Thank You

AutoTune - Jason Chen ft. Bubzbeauty

Just thinking about you as I sing this song

Cause when you're around,  I can do no wrong

And I'm never too sharp, never flat

Girl imagine that

You always know how to bring me right back

When my pitch is off

You make it all right , when it's all so wrong

You're my auto tune, you can be my auto tune

"You need to be calm and every good things will come to you. You need to learn from your mistake and not blaming others for things they did. As they are not even feel sorry for you. Don't let your emotion drive your real feeling and ignore the one who you want to be. Just let it go as history. Begin your new journey and leave all sorrow you have ever feel. To make yourself the happiest person on earth. "

" Be brave cause nothing wrong with sadness yet you need to be strong enough and let yourself smile again."

" Never give up on things you want to achieve, cause one day you will be proud of yourself cause you did it"

" Never blame someone who lied to you cause you give them chances to , so be smart enough not to experience it for the second and third"

"Things get worst when you start complaining. Do your best and you will realize there is rainbow after rain."

" No one will ever love you as much as your parents,so treasure it. "

"Don't let anger take over your happiness. Smile cause it makes you anger abate."

"Cry when you want to cry cause it release your burden "

" I am not perfect yet i am trying to bring the best out of myself"

" Problems are obstacle to be a better you."

" Find TRUE FRIEND not the one who can stab you on your back. Be smart!"

"Live your life to the fullest, cause you only live once."

Mistake - Girl's Generation

Have a good day you. 

The Truth

I am not sure of how this topic drive me to the point where i feel fortunate. Things that i would like to find out long time ago, finally being revealed by my dear friends today. Okay just let me get you to the point where i used to feel so pathetic about myself as someone you love, love someone else which is my best friend . Yet just now, i found out EVERYTHING. I feel blithesome yet on the other side i feel sad as you are someone who i thought to be the most sincere friend ever. You are the one who always disagree of my relationship and the jealous you showed which make me feel bad hide a lot of SECRET. Today, i feel so insecure about relationship i have with everyone. From you, i questioned person who tried to be nice to me. Are they just you? Worse? or Truthful?

I am not blaming you to like someone else, yet you have no right to lie. I hate liar. A LOT. Just to let you know. Even though i am not feel sorry for myself anymore still i can't accept EVERYTHING you have ever told  and done to me. I questioned our togetherness. Is it a deceit? Can i still trust you? Can i respect you? Honestly, i don't know.

I believe you have a very clear perspective of what person i can be if  i find out someone who i trust not earning my respect anymore. What should I do? Do you have any idea? This explode feeling comes one in a while and THIS IS THE WORST, my dear best friend.

Excitement and Sadness approaches. Honestly i have no idea of feeling I should have right now. Everything seem so counterfeit. Still i know, the truth existence are valid.

"A culture of honest earns a degree of respect". I will try to live with it yet our friendship won't ever go back to where it was before. Frankly, I have to tell that once you are my best friend.

Maybe , we can start all over again without lie and more genuine.MAYBE.......

A blast..

4th of April, it's my birthday.

This year, i celebrated my 22nd birthday in my hometown, Medan. Too much unexpected surprise from my childhood friends and it means so much to me. Never in my mind, to expect any surprise as i have leaved Medan for more than 5 years, it really brings back all our memories of how we used to celebrate birthdays. Good old days. Thanks for everyone who came and surprised me the day before , brought me super nice birthday cake early in the morning and the utmost for my best friend who lied to me. You are the best. Thank you so so much. 

The surprise not yet over once i left Medan, today early in the morning, my best friend came and surprised me with present and wishes. I was touched. Never thought that you will come today as my birthday was 2 days ago. Thanks for the effort . Really appreciate the surprise and unexpected visit EARLY in the morning as i know you are not an early person. =) Other surprise come from my friends who organised T8 restaurant's staff to sing me birthday song with birthday cake on their appearance. I feel so embarrassed as once i thought it was not for me. Hilarious moment happened. I am fortunate , i really do =)

Moreover, thanks for all the wishes in twitter, facebook, bbm, what's app or whatever the apps is, sorry i can't reply all those message as it was too many to reply yet i have received and read it. 

Thanks for all my friends who remember my birthday. Maybe thank you is not enough to describe how i feel right now. Yet i still feel like saying thanks for thousand times. THANK YOU .THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. I am happy to have all of you in my life. I really mean it. I hope distance won't take any major influence in our friendship. I hope this friendship will grow into something beautiful.

People say i am lucky yet i say i am blessed. Thanks for the opportunity to let me experience an awesome birthday this year