EXAM EXAM EXAM!

Yeah, exam period will come in one week time  yet i am not prepared. This semester is the toughest half year of  my university life before i will finally graduate next semester. Can't wait that freedom to come but i still stuck in present and no idea how's my future will look like. Is it quite pathetic since you are international graduate and don't have any plan about which country will you stay after completion of your degree?

I am confused which decision to take either back to Jakarta or stay longer and find permanent job here in Australia? My parents questioned me this stuff for a year and finally they gave up. I kept on changing my mind due to situation and mood. Now, as graduation day getting nearer and i am disoriented.

I am thinking is it good to go back for-good? Will i have life that i wanted? Or will i regret since i won't get freedom like what i have nowadays? Or stay here and jobless?

I would like to have a look of my future 5 years from now. Hence, i won't be confused about what path should i take.Out of all the confusion that i made for myself, one thing for sure, i will graduate honorably from RMIT.

Btw, this song is for YOU.

Sometimes, when people decide to leave you for good, you have to let them. No matter how much you don't want them to. There are some things that are far beyond our control. Even if you have the strength to fight for them , you have to accept the cold harsh truth - the people you can't leave without can leave without you. 


Don't try to hold the past in the future. than life will tend to be out of future. 


You can't lose what you never had. You can't keep what not yours.And you can't hold onto something that doesn't want to stay. 


The easiest way not to get hurt is not to care. But that's the hardest thing to do. 


Follow your heart but take your brain with you!


It's quite ironic that in life, the person that brings out the best in you and make you strong is actually your weakness. 


Have a good day everyone! =)

its hurt when someone you know become someone you knew. they didn't make any effort to spend their time with you and start to ignore you.  i believed its hard to say goodbye to someone who once means everything to you and i put lots of efforts just to be happy in front of my family and friends in order to pretend everything is going well with you.  

People who ignore me once will do it repeatedly that's why to prevent being ignore for the second and third , i believe that i am strong enough to accept that we come to an end. I know i keep on repeating the same sentences over and over again yet do you know every time i tell you that i care for this relationship i really do. No lies . Its sincere. 

Now, i understand no matter how long i stand in this relationship, the story is still in the same track. So, Its better to have no conversation with you and have my own life since i can't pretend to be happy all the time. i need to feel what real happiness is. Thus, i finally let you go without any argument. In Silence. 

I just re-read my old post and it seems like i am having a hard times this past few months. Now, no more sadness only HAPPINESS. I believed that happiness will come as long as we didn't complain too much. So, i will put sadness aside and pursue my happiness. =)

for you, i hope you understand!

Memories..

Let our memories fade as time keep moving forward. I do believe that every decision with purpose of better intention for tomorrow. I regret every decision i have made yet somehow it was great decision for both of us. The moment i dislike the most is saying GOODBYE. I used to believe that as long as we have commitment , relationship will work out as what we planned .Yet , it didn't. We quarreled. We blamed. We stopped contacting.

I don't blame you for everything that had happened. Its not your fault. its all MINE. I would like to say thanks to YOU since someone better came and treat me nicer that you did. You make me realize that happiness will still there. Only the matter of time. =)

" Laugh when you can , apologize when you should and let go of what you can't change" 

I understand why people come and go in our life. That's why we can appreciate who are stay still.
lately, i have been thinking a lot about you. We suppose to share story of life together yet we didn't manage to get rid of obstacle that come to us.

i didn't blame distance and time as we manage to get very well these past 2 years but situation changed just in a blink. Our relationship seems to be more complicated then what we expected it to be. we were getting apart from each other and communication that always can work out our relationship seems to be things that we didn't appreciate at all. We fight . We blame . Awkward relationship happens. . Finally, i take one step back and here is our relationship.

"Two people who are determine to be together , take different path of road and step ahead for better future."

somehow i have ever thought to turn back time, one things that i will do is value every moment i spent with you. its not your fault just time and situation lead us to something we don't think to be happened. maybe not now, maybe later. i believe things that suppose to be will find it owns happiness by the end of the day. So don't worry. i will be fine perhaps not now but later. give me time to reflect what i want and i will be fine. =) Thanks to fulfill me with laughter and sadness. i honor both of them as they bring experience so we can move forward and take along new experience.