The Truth

I am not sure of how this topic drive me to the point where i feel fortunate. Things that i would like to find out long time ago, finally being revealed by my dear friends today. Okay just let me get you to the point where i used to feel so pathetic about myself as someone you love, love someone else which is my best friend . Yet just now, i found out EVERYTHING. I feel blithesome yet on the other side i feel sad as you are someone who i thought to be the most sincere friend ever. You are the one who always disagree of my relationship and the jealous you showed which make me feel bad hide a lot of SECRET. Today, i feel so insecure about relationship i have with everyone. From you, i questioned person who tried to be nice to me. Are they just you? Worse? or Truthful?

I am not blaming you to like someone else, yet you have no right to lie. I hate liar. A LOT. Just to let you know. Even though i am not feel sorry for myself anymore still i can't accept EVERYTHING you have ever told  and done to me. I questioned our togetherness. Is it a deceit? Can i still trust you? Can i respect you? Honestly, i don't know.

I believe you have a very clear perspective of what person i can be if  i find out someone who i trust not earning my respect anymore. What should I do? Do you have any idea? This explode feeling comes one in a while and THIS IS THE WORST, my dear best friend.

Excitement and Sadness approaches. Honestly i have no idea of feeling I should have right now. Everything seem so counterfeit. Still i know, the truth existence are valid.

"A culture of honest earns a degree of respect". I will try to live with it yet our friendship won't ever go back to where it was before. Frankly, I have to tell that once you are my best friend.

Maybe , we can start all over again without lie and more genuine.MAYBE.......