When you thought, you come out with right choice, yet actually you stuck. Disappointment and feeling lost. Then "what if "question popped up. Not really sure how long you can stand this situation, but you will definitely get rid of it very soon. If it is not worth-ed, then leave it. You are more valuable then you valued yourself. There will always be someone who give you peace ; and not to be doubtful, worry and stressing about attention.