okay! i have a bad day today! actually i need to work today, but what happen is i couldn't wake up and end up by staying at home DOING NOTHING! and i think that i will be fired since this is my second time! GEEZ! my supervisor, Calvin definitely will fire me in the next meeting but there is still hope that he can forgive me * finger cross! don't be too bad too me please :)
its all because i stayed late the night before!! i need to change my sleeping behaviour or else it will ruin everything that i have planned! now, i am waiting for my friends to come over my place since we will have our girls night out today by having dinner, and we will go to some popular bar to drink! sounds fun and will update in my next post. i PROMISE :)
we have been hang out for several times but never go out till late at the night and this is our first experience going out and DRINK! actually i am not a good drinker, i will get red and high quickly. since nobody will take care of me today, i cant drink much or else will end up by embarrass myself! hence, i need to control myself! YES self control is important!! since it is disappeared from my side this few months!
after i arrived in Melbourne, i think i have changed A LOT and maybe its going towards the negative not a positive way. and i don't know WHY! keep on disappointing my parents that's the major problem. keep on making them angry because i suppose to be a girl who is very obedient by letting them control myself.but nowadays i cant accept it, is it because of my surrounding or because i think i need to have my own life? for sure ,i don't know the answer NOW! as time goes by, hopefully everything will be alright and i wont regret anything by the time i find out the answer.
