When i have had enough

There is only fine line between giving up and knowing when you have had enough. Actually, i only need one day when i wake up and decide that i don't want to feel this way, then i change. And that's when i can attain joy in myself. Know your worth to decide. :)

Love, Care and Attention are given freely, if you need to fight for it then its better to walk away. Reality. Accept it.

Everyone is seeking for their own happiness, why don't you?

Yet for some reason, you just cant deal with your own feeling. You tend to use your heart more than head which make you upset and disappoint ed at the end of the day.

But for some reasons, people will stick to what they chooose. If you think , its the right things then go with it.

I promise no matter how difficult a situation is, and how frustrated i will get, I wont give up on You or US unless you showed me that you are no longer can be trusted.

" A real MAN choose to love , honor, respect, adore, and be faithful to one woman. " And i do hope that you are the one. I put my faith on you.

Never ask why i love you. Cause it just happened.

Have a good holiday everyone :)

When you thought, you come out with right choice, yet actually you stuck. Disappointment and feeling lost. Then "what if "question popped up. Not really sure how long you can stand this situation, but you will definitely get rid of it very soon. If it is not worth-ed, then leave it. You are more valuable then you valued yourself. There will always be someone who give you peace ; and not to be doubtful, worry and stressing about attention.

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt.
The trick to get out is to shake it off and take a step up.
Each of our troubles is a steppingstone.
We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping , never give up!
Shake it off and take a step up.

Always remember to implement 5 simple rules to be happy :
1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive
2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happens
3.Live simply and appreciate what you have
4.Give more
5. Expect less from people but more from yourself.

Good movie to review..

Last Saturday, i spent my whole afternoon watching some nice movies and the best goes to Letters to God. Its about a boy who is being diagnose having cancer ; experiences chemotherapy and surgery during his lifetime. It tells what he has done during his struggle of pain ; he writes letter to God and by the end of the story inspire lots of human to write letter to God. Believe that we may not see God yet believe He is everywhere. He does listen every of our prayers.

This movie makes my eyes teary. A lot to learn.

Never complain. Wake up everyday with smile on your face.
Don't complain yet appreciate small little bless in life.
Make your living useful for others.
Make others happy with your existence.
And pursue every single days with determination so things will flow smoothly.
Don't live with doubt.
Your existence in world is worthy. Try to capture it on mind and be the best.
Be happy and live your life to the fullest.

Today, i feel blessed. I might not have best things in life. But i have the greatest. Bad experience let me  learn and be blessed. Good ones makes me capture it as special moments ;  most useful source when i am down.

One things for sure, i will stop complaining for every low sequence in life cause compare to others , i might have the easiest ones.

Treasure every moment i cherish in life as something  ; we called it moments. If things change, be happy. There will always be something new for develop our self as human being.

YOU....

You. 

You might not be perfect yet you are the one who can make me smile for no reason. 

You let me be the happiest girl. 

You are someone who i would like to share all my stories with.

You are someone who i trust. 

You are someone who make me feel so special.

You let me be a princess in reality.

You make me wait impatiently for weekend .

You make me feel comfortable. 

You make me feel love. 

You are just precious and special for me. 

You always complain about far distance driving yet you will drive all the way just to fetch me.

It was a million of tiny little things yet when you added them up, it supposed to be together. Just like you and me. 

Thanks for the effort. 

Dedicated post to MELISA SARTONO

When others asked me how to describe and what does best friend means, i tell everyone that ;

Best Friend is you. Everything , the good and the bad.

We spent too much quality time in Australia. Do lots of stupid things. Of course some smart stuff as well =) .  I have never doubt your sincerity towards me. That's what make us strong. No secrets. No backstabbing.

We are type of friend who keeps on contacting each other despite of how busy our day might be. We can always have something to laugh about. Sometimes just some stupid lame jokes. We did laugh. You are someone who I believe always there for me, listen too my same old stories and someone who i believed always stay true.

Our friendship is the most precious one I have right now. It doesn't mean other friendship is not important yet its just with you, i can share everything. Its really everything, no secret cause i know you always there to support me. You, also never judge whatever decision I made. Always support and believe i can always make the best decision even with some of your wisdom words.

Things that i treasure so much about our friendship is our openness and honest. I appreciate much to have you as my best friend. I know you might not be perfect yet to me you are and always be. Thanks for the friendship, advice , patient and care.

I do hope our friendship will long-last. Always keep on mind the sweetest sentences you said to me as i know you are not that sweet type person. =D On the last day in Melbourne, before heading back to Indonesia, you told me to always stay true and keep our friendship as it is.Until we become grandparents with lots of grandchild.
By that time, i was touched.

I still remember last year, when we celebrated your 21st birthday. My effort to come out with a birthday surprise for you did work. And i am grateful that you like it. This year, on your 22nd birthday I hope you like the "expected " surprise, HAAHAHAHA. Here come sincere wish from me to you, hope you like it.

Happy Birthday my Super Best Friend!
Wish you nothing but the best.
Stay pretty as you always are.
Success on your further study in China this September.
Stay sweet with your beloved one a.k.a RYAN.
Keep on making others happy with your existence.
Stay happy. *Please terharu hahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN , MELISA SARTONO=) 

T.R.U.S.T

Trust is the biggest issue yet not being concerned as the most important factor of a relationship. Never trust anyone completely. I clearly believe without foundation of trust, then there will be no future. Its true you need to have ability of trust, but sometimes circumstances not allow you to have faith on it. Then you know its time to let go things that make you anxious before. Once i tried to convinced myself that i should put my trust on you. I make efforts. LOTS. But i was fooled by you.

Trust is not always proven by words. Sometimes action tells more than you ever do.

"Sometimes you trust someone who turns out not to be honest. There are a lot of things that happen in life that don't turn out the way you're given the impression that they will. And I think that's all kind of a con. But i think we've probably all been hurt. -Sigourney Weaver"

Don't state anything about care, love , affection and all those non-sense. Cause i am no longer believe on you. If you do care, probably this won't happen. Reality allow me to have deep relation with you and its a good things. It helps me to grow. Learn this world. Not everyone is trustworthy.

How i wish not to believe in reality. Clearly know that i am not important enough for you to consider, yet too goofy about the whole things from the very beginning. But before my feelings get screwed ; then we can pursue our dream separately. 

This will be the most random post for the most random person ever.

Hey you.Just to let you know that most of my friends said that i am a girl who never show any attention to someone who is special to me. Mostly, i wont notify anyone and keep everything for myself. I know, its a bad behavior to keep.So this is my very first time telling you that i care. Its sincere. Its honest. So should i say that you are special to me?

No one ever know whats on my mind. Cause i have a thought about human being. They are not really care, all they do is just pretending. I hope we can be open no matter what reason we have, cause i would like you to help me develop and learn things i have never experience before.

And i will post songs that are on my playlist.Not what's on my mind, so don't let your mind do the guessing. Enjoy. =)

 Jason Chen- Invisible 

Jason Chen - Thank You

AutoTune - Jason Chen ft. Bubzbeauty

Just thinking about you as I sing this song

Cause when you're around,  I can do no wrong

And I'm never too sharp, never flat

Girl imagine that

You always know how to bring me right back

When my pitch is off

You make it all right , when it's all so wrong

You're my auto tune, you can be my auto tune

"You need to be calm and every good things will come to you. You need to learn from your mistake and not blaming others for things they did. As they are not even feel sorry for you. Don't let your emotion drive your real feeling and ignore the one who you want to be. Just let it go as history. Begin your new journey and leave all sorrow you have ever feel. To make yourself the happiest person on earth. "

" Be brave cause nothing wrong with sadness yet you need to be strong enough and let yourself smile again."

" Never give up on things you want to achieve, cause one day you will be proud of yourself cause you did it"

" Never blame someone who lied to you cause you give them chances to , so be smart enough not to experience it for the second and third"

"Things get worst when you start complaining. Do your best and you will realize there is rainbow after rain."

" No one will ever love you as much as your parents,so treasure it. "

"Don't let anger take over your happiness. Smile cause it makes you anger abate."

"Cry when you want to cry cause it release your burden "

" I am not perfect yet i am trying to bring the best out of myself"

" Problems are obstacle to be a better you."

" Find TRUE FRIEND not the one who can stab you on your back. Be smart!"

"Live your life to the fullest, cause you only live once."

Mistake - Girl's Generation

Have a good day you. 

The Truth

I am not sure of how this topic drive me to the point where i feel fortunate. Things that i would like to find out long time ago, finally being revealed by my dear friends today. Okay just let me get you to the point where i used to feel so pathetic about myself as someone you love, love someone else which is my best friend . Yet just now, i found out EVERYTHING. I feel blithesome yet on the other side i feel sad as you are someone who i thought to be the most sincere friend ever. You are the one who always disagree of my relationship and the jealous you showed which make me feel bad hide a lot of SECRET. Today, i feel so insecure about relationship i have with everyone. From you, i questioned person who tried to be nice to me. Are they just you? Worse? or Truthful?

I am not blaming you to like someone else, yet you have no right to lie. I hate liar. A LOT. Just to let you know. Even though i am not feel sorry for myself anymore still i can't accept EVERYTHING you have ever told  and done to me. I questioned our togetherness. Is it a deceit? Can i still trust you? Can i respect you? Honestly, i don't know.

I believe you have a very clear perspective of what person i can be if  i find out someone who i trust not earning my respect anymore. What should I do? Do you have any idea? This explode feeling comes one in a while and THIS IS THE WORST, my dear best friend.

Excitement and Sadness approaches. Honestly i have no idea of feeling I should have right now. Everything seem so counterfeit. Still i know, the truth existence are valid.

"A culture of honest earns a degree of respect". I will try to live with it yet our friendship won't ever go back to where it was before. Frankly, I have to tell that once you are my best friend.

Maybe , we can start all over again without lie and more genuine.MAYBE.......

A blast..

4th of April, it's my birthday.

This year, i celebrated my 22nd birthday in my hometown, Medan. Too much unexpected surprise from my childhood friends and it means so much to me. Never in my mind, to expect any surprise as i have leaved Medan for more than 5 years, it really brings back all our memories of how we used to celebrate birthdays. Good old days. Thanks for everyone who came and surprised me the day before , brought me super nice birthday cake early in the morning and the utmost for my best friend who lied to me. You are the best. Thank you so so much. 

The surprise not yet over once i left Medan, today early in the morning, my best friend came and surprised me with present and wishes. I was touched. Never thought that you will come today as my birthday was 2 days ago. Thanks for the effort . Really appreciate the surprise and unexpected visit EARLY in the morning as i know you are not an early person. =) Other surprise come from my friends who organised T8 restaurant's staff to sing me birthday song with birthday cake on their appearance. I feel so embarrassed as once i thought it was not for me. Hilarious moment happened. I am fortunate , i really do =)

Moreover, thanks for all the wishes in twitter, facebook, bbm, what's app or whatever the apps is, sorry i can't reply all those message as it was too many to reply yet i have received and read it. 

Thanks for all my friends who remember my birthday. Maybe thank you is not enough to describe how i feel right now. Yet i still feel like saying thanks for thousand times. THANK YOU .THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. I am happy to have all of you in my life. I really mean it. I hope distance won't take any major influence in our friendship. I hope this friendship will grow into something beautiful.

People say i am lucky yet i say i am blessed. Thanks for the opportunity to let me experience an awesome birthday this year

Footprint In Your Heart

Randomly found out this poem and its TRUE

Many people will walk in and out of your life,

But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart. 

To handle yourself, use your head;

To handle others, use your heart.

Anger is only one letter short of danger.

If someone betrays you once, it is his fault;

If he betrays you twice, it is your fault.

Great minds discuss ideas,

Average minds discuss events,

Small minds discuss people.

He who loses money, loses much;

He who loses a friend, loses much more;

He who loses faith, loses all.

Beautiful young people are accidents of nature,

But beautiful old people are works of art. 

Learn from the mistakes of others.

You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.

Friends, you and me. 

You brought another friend,

And then there were three.

We started our group, 

Our circle of friends,

And like that circle-

There is no beginning or end. 

Yesterday is history.

Tomorrow is mystery.

Today is a gift. 

That's why its called the present.

Eleanor Roosevelt

Have a good Sunday everyone. Spread love as much as you want to be loved <3 p="">

nannananannna~

It has been on my playlist for one month. By the time, i was still at Melbourne, enjoying my last day with my dear friends. Time flies. This is my third weeks in Indonesia, and everything seem to be different as what i used to be. I can go anywhere anytime with anyone, yet here i need to stick to my parents rules and its kinda frustrating. 

Its too naive if i told everyone that i didn't get angry sometime, but in someway i am happy to be back. I am happy to sleep on my own bed, making noise in my own house. 

Some pros and cons will constantly emerge. That's what we called LIFE. 

Even things seem to mess with your life, we should keep going. Motivate yourself with things you adore, and  sweep away things that you loathe.

Graduation memories.

GRADUATION. 121212.  FUTURE , HERE I COME =)