Result, Goal and Achievement

My result has been released and i am not satisfied at all. Firstly, i aimed for PASS and after i knew my result i want higher! is that bad? Since i studied pretty hard those days. I achieved better result than PASS but i want Distinction or maybe High Distinction because i am confident of what i have completed.

I know i am not supposed to be sad and unsatisfied since others might attained lower result than i do. Yet i am Human that always craving for better things to happen. Am i right?

Released result can't be modified yet it let me to motivate myself to do better next semester and i believe i can make it!!

Everything happened for a reason. and the reason that i get this result might be due to lack of study in the past. i need to be more studious and achievement will soon be obtained.

Good and Bad things happen that's why i need to appreciate everything cause its nonsense if things can happen in good way all times. so cheer up and make good event take place in your side.

I promise I wont complain !

不想懂得 - 張韶涵

当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐


拥有了 同时也失去什麼
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折


我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼


我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
互相照顾就是幸福的


当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦 虽然远远的
想像是 一种快乐


拥有了 同时也失去什麼
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折


我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼


我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是 感动的


我愿意
一秒钟 放弃全宇宙
挤在只有我们
紧靠的小星球


我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼


我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是 感动的


说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼
我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻

彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是 感动的

=D

Cherish every event that took place in our maturation process will lead us to higher level of knowledge as compare to others.

i am not the smartest nor the prettiest creation that exist in the universal. i am not even the nicest and humble friend you might want to meet. Experience told me to be more selective due to relation with others . Put too much hope and faith in someone will make you realize that they aren't even worth your trust.

Have faith on yourself is the key to pursue your own success. Do your best and believe that good outcome might take place as we put much effort in order to carry / perform a role. Every duty that being given to us is difficult still that task must be done and submitted on time. Hence, just put the best effort and everything will worth the try.

I am a girl who never have brilliant thought , incompetent on taking decision yet i believe that i can do things that others cant.

Learn from mistake, Set goals and Try to achieve it as you will be proud of yourself if you can maintain it.

I am here not to lecture anyone , yet giving motivation to others and recover from pessimist cause i believe NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. As there is motivation and diligence , everyone will attain GOAL of their life.

However, there is the need of having parents and friends who might want to support us when we are down. I am grateful as i have parents and friends who always stay by my side in good and bad time. I thank God of everything i earn in life.

Personally, good and bad memories of things happen in my life will be taken as the knowledge to shape my personality to become better individual as time goes by.

Here, i just want to share some of my happiness. Recently, i have being accepted by Max Brenner as my second part time jobs in Australia after Nando's! Hope everything will come out as what i have planned. However, i am worry about my result which will be released this coming Monday. Hope the result will fit up my happiness that i earned today !!

Have a good day peeps!

爸爸，妈妈 我爱 你们！！

this post dedicated for my parents who i owed the most in life.

we might not be the richest family in the earth but we are the happiest :) we might have tons of argument, but i believe we will end up as the wonderful family!

my small lovable family :)

happy together

my mom and dad in cousin's wedding

i feel blessed with all my problems. its just prepare me to encounter every obstacle come against me. i become more mature and ready for new experience. Always put smile on my face is one of my strength to show the world that i am strong enough even though sometimes deep inside my heart, i want to show that i am not as happy as my appearance but it just cant come out naturally. at all time whenever i have my friends arround, i always feel warmth and comfortable which made me not concern about my problem and sadness.

Friends are the best present that i have ever had in my life. i will cherish every moment whenever i am surrounded with them.

A real friend is not the one who only entertain you but the one who cares about you , one who will be there when you cry.

visit back to my hometown ;)

First time going Neverland

during her visit to Melbourne. Besties ;D

During my study at Malaysia! Miss you guys !!

WaterBom after Final Exam!!

Thanks for the surprise ! Appreciate it very much.

Vien's and my birthday celebration!

My first birthday at Melbourne.

Thanks for all the good and bad time accompany! Thanks for being there when i needed the most. Thanks for the advice.

All of us are in different state and doing our best to pursue our goals . Hope we can gather someday as a SUCCESSFUL person. =D All the best friends, hope our friendship will remain forever.

responsibility

is it hard to be responsible of the things needed to be completed?

have a good time management and determination will obtain good self management of being responsible. however, there are lots of people didn't actually know whats the importance of being responsible. they constantly think to hand out their responsibility to others who are having more concern of completing the task. okay i am talking about you. i know all of us might have different thoughts, but do you think that everyone need to accept your thoughts without concerning theirs?

people who dont have responsible at all will face failure in the end and it might lead to regrets in the end. be responsible of yourself than others will respect you as what you have shown them. Having responsible as second nature wont drag you to failure however it will lead you to brighter future. responsible isn't required as in your work itself yet relationship with others as well. thus, as you learn to be responsible of your own things and appointment with others, everyone will give you a big applause and willingly to work with you. if not, don't thought of having others faith. lack of faith in others will make yourself suffer in association.

dont drag your success into failure simply you cant be responsible.before you regret, try to learn the things named RESPONSIBLE.

have a good weekends everyone :)

be wise!

falling in love with someone that understand and care about you are blessing. when someone you love , give similar action in return its blissfulness. finding the right person to love and to be loved is troublesome. hence, appreciate the person that give you warmness and treat you as their precious one. and in the main time, just use your heart less.

too much stories to be told and sometimes its just not worth our time. keep people who treat you right and delete unimportant person.

here the story begin,

i have "J& A" who are not worth to be respect since they are just bunch of people who are needed to be deleted from my head. okay, i admitted that i might be doing inappropriate performance toward YOU but have you ever think whats my motivation? because you are the one who started the war.

honestly, no time to hate you but you have lost my respect and hopefully i wont meet people like you.

To you, please be more mature in handling any problem and try to communicate with others since you live in the world with million and even thousand creation.

moreover, IF PEOPLE GIVE YOU SOMETHING PLEASE BE RESPECTFUL! at least say THANK YOU!

this is the very last time i talk about " YOU " ! oh , i forgot the most important things. please be honest and don't be such a thief. its a bad behavior to keep!

GOOD BYE!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

To all fathers in the world, hope happiness are always YOURS

This post is dedicated to my beloved father.. I love you , DAD! I know you are not perfect and we seem to have conflicting thoughts but it doesn't means anything since you will try to perform your best just to suport my "childish" performance.

I know we need to love our dad every single day, but today seems to be very special and I want to let the world know that

YOU ARE THE GREATEST DAD !

and i am proud to be your daughter.

I know i havent make you proud yet, but one day you will held high your head and said “ YES, that girl who stand in front is my daughter”. that’s will be my pay for the hard work to raise and encourage me when I needed.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!!

I know this is not mothers day but I still wanna thank her for everything she done these days. In this world, girl and women who I love the most will be MY MOM! She is the strongest woman i have ever met since she is willing to sacrifice her needs just to make me happy and have a bright future.

My mom and my dad are my HERO! Someday in the future, I promise to give double happiness that you have never imagined.

sorry for the anger that once in a while exploded. and thanks to have faith on me . will take it as my motivation to keep walking forward.

Sincerely,
Your daughter ☺

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okay! i have a bad day today! actually i need to work today, but what happen is i couldn't wake up and end up by staying at home DOING NOTHING! and i think that i will be fired since this is my second time! GEEZ! my supervisor, Calvin definitely will fire me in the next meeting but there is still hope that he can forgive me * finger cross! don't be too bad too me please :)

its all because i stayed late the night before!! i need to change my sleeping behaviour or else it will ruin everything that i have planned! now, i am waiting for my friends to come over my place since we will have our girls night out today by having dinner, and we will go to some popular bar to drink! sounds fun and will update in my next post. i PROMISE :)

we have been hang out for several times but never go out till late at the night and this is our first experience going out and DRINK! actually i am not a good drinker, i will get red and high quickly. since nobody will take care of me today, i cant drink much or else will end up by embarrass myself! hence, i need to control myself! YES self control is important!! since it is disappeared from my side this few months!

after i arrived in Melbourne, i think i have changed A LOT and maybe its going towards the negative not a positive way. and i don't know WHY! keep on disappointing my parents that's the major problem. keep on making them angry because i suppose to be a girl who is very obedient by letting them control myself.but nowadays i cant accept it, is it because of my surrounding or because i think i need to have my own life? for sure ,i don't know the answer NOW! as time goes by, hopefully everything will be alright and i wont regret anything by the time i find out the answer.

secret

some secret can be shared and some secret just need to be kept as a memories but most of the time, i will just shared all my secret with someone who i really trust. likewise, i am sharing my secret with my very best friend NOW. we just know each other for 2 years but i think we got the same character. feel like half of my burden lost after i shared with her. wish she can come faster to Melbourne so we can have a late night talk everyday! i really miss our moment when we spent our togetherness by gossiping and advising each other about our act and behavior!

Problem will still be there but sharing will make your shoulder lighter moreover sharing with someone that can give you advise that's help A LOT! and don't give their negative judgement towards you. i love the feeling after Skype session with FIONA! just feel like happy nothing much! :)

i have a good day today since it is my HOLIDAY. wake up early in the afternoon * LOL then went out to eat lunch with my friend and end up to IKEA in the night and EAT *again hence watching KUNGFU PANDA 2 to end up my fabulous day. its a recommended movie to be watched nowadays since it can make you laugh during the movie.

tomorrow gonna wake up earlier and another good holiday is waiting for me! please 9 July come faster cause i want to meet my best friend so badly!

good time to spent

tonight i went out for dinner with my first Indonesian friend after such a long time dealing with my exam paper. finally today , i am FREE and the smell of FREEDOM is like SO GOOD~ really enjoy this feeling before start to confuse about my test and stressful stuff!!

its been so nice to spent my dinner time with some new indonesian friends who i met in RMIT. we went for buffet in CROWN as our dinner and the foods taste YUMMY. they also gave us FREE prawn as the complementary .All of us feel sick after eating all the prawns! LOL. after fill our stomach with lots of food from beef, chicken, mushroom soup and dessert (yea thats all the food that get in to my stomach in one night ) we went for drinking session in HYATT'S HOTEL. we chat and laugh a whole night and i just feel HAPPY. its been a while i didnt speak and chat in INDONESIA's language and it feels like i am back to INDONESIA and the feeling is like irreplaceable.

this " HAPPY " word seems to disappear from my life lately but that's before i made a very important decision in my life.

"ITS JUST REALLY HARD TO LET GO THINGS THAT SUPPOSE TO BE YOURS. "

Its been my dilemma for this few weeks but knowing that regret wont change anything hence i made a decision and HAPPINESS starts to take its own place AGAIN. making decision to let go things might be hard, but as you start to work it out, everything will be okay at least in the process of letting go, you will learn things in an unpredictable way. you gain more knowledge than before and build you to be a more mature individual. in the process, as well you will find more people come and go in your life and you will start appreciate people who are really mean to you and who dont. hence, in life, people come and go but memories will stay. hope every moment that we made today take an important part in our memories.

LAW!

YOU MADE MY DAY TERRIBLE!

FAMILY

now i just realize that when life hit you hard downwards, family is the one who will stand by your side by giving you courage and power to deal with the problem . either friends or lover will move one step backwards. and this seems to happen in people's life. not being pessimistic on relationship with outsider but people change when condition change. problem can give you experience and knowledge of who you can trust and hold on when you are suffering. family will encourage you with all your choice without complaining of your "drama queen" behavior and attitude. they keep on giving you strength and motivation until you can pass the difficult chapter of your life.

okay , there are some FRIENDS that you can depend on but the question is HOW LONG? people get bored easily and so do them. firstly, they with their enthusiastic asking what happen to you then awhile after that when you keep repeating the same story, they will get bored and start to leave you alone with those problem.

BUT ...
family, they are your source of courage when you feel sad even in you happy time you forget about FAMILY but at least when you realize you need someone , family member will take the first place to come and help you.

some people argue, i have a nice and loyal best friend that would like to hear the problem. but don't you forget that they have their own and they cant care enough for you. lets say they care when they are in front of you but when you disappear from their sight, they will be more focus on theirs. but family will think and care of you EVERY TIME even when you didn't really want to find them in your lowest point.

FAMILY become the most important parts in my life since i find out that friends , best friends and lovers have chance to betray you and let you experience sweet memories in the beginning but hurts in the end.

hence, every moment spent with your family really count and appreciate for those who still have it in your life because REGRET ALWAYS COME LATE.

emo ing

i used to be happy right now but something happens and it ruins everything! it ruins my mood to study and that leads me to post some useful things in my blog.

do you know that when you start missing someone? it feels really bad and the hardest part is when he didn't even miss and think about you. i am sure that he didn't miss me since no phone call made by him since 1 week ago. i know i cant start to miss him since he had hurt me for more than twice.but my heart seems to give him a very special place as always. oh no! i am emo ing right now. can someone just take my heart away maybe i will be happy by then.
i know it seems weird when i want to be a no hearted person. but yes i want to be one of them now! person without heart so i wont be so hurt when someone hurt me so bad and i wont cry and being touched. it will be great that way,. i am too tired to live with all problem in my life. i cant solve even one of my problem since i need to take care of everyone feeling and make them happy. i cant stand it anymore. so heart, can you please be nice to me? let me do whatever i want for the really first time? :(